Seth Ryan

My name is Seth Ryan. I'm a seventeen year old trans-male living in NJ. I've living in New Jersey my whole life, but have had the opprutunity to travel across the US with my family. I have relatives who grew up across seas so I'm hoping that one day, I might be able to travel to those places. It's one of my dreams to travel the world and learn as many languages as I possibly can. I'm a writer by nature and love the written word. I also love music. I play the harp. It's soothing and feels natural to me.

I'm a femme trans-male meaning that while I identify as a male, I am attracted to feminine things. I also still have an attraction to men. So I guess you could say that I'm queer. I'm very much in tune with my sexuality. I'm very proud of it as well. For a long time I haven't been that way having suppressed to the point to wherer I couldn't even recognize it. I'm still very much virgin so I mean the emotions that I felt. I suppressed them all. I was consumed with depression. I still have depression in which daily medication regulates, but no longer do I feel like I am strapped down by heavy, oppressive feelings.

I'm a Satanist, and am very happy to be. I announced the news to my parents in 2011. They weren't very happy with it. Of course they don't know the truth of it all. I'm still new in my walk, but I know that if I trust is Satan that I will come to understand all that I need to. This walk I have with my Father is eternal and sacred to me. No one can push me off this path.

During the summer of 2007 I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome. It was really hard to come to terms with. That was one of that factors that made that summer awful. I was extremely depressed. I couldn't eat, sleep, and didn't feel like going out and seeing friends. I ending up attempting suicide in the winter. I was taken to a psych ward. Afterwards, I went to out patient therapy. Later on the next year I was put back into the psych ward and later back into out-patient theray. I ended up leaving my middle school and going into home school for a while and then into an alternative school which was forty five minutes awy from where I lived. I'm a very open-minded person, or at least I try to be. I have a wide range of interests from K-Pop, Bollywood, Black and White movies, manga to collecting stuffed animals and the goth subculture. My friends are just as diverse as well. Welcome to my madhouse.