Sheila c

Why are people so different with their ability to handle different situations? Why do some people have grit mixed with determination while others are fragile? This need for figuring out what people are saying and feeling has followed me through my life. The underdogs side, was my side too, but never had issues making friends. Through out school I never had issues with people, friends were plentiful. However, at the times I had the most people around me, the more I felt I didn't belong. Feeling like a misfit toy that gets thrown out after the party. Humans have a deep sense of wanting to fit in or to belong. Being a kind person or a person that does not hurt others, can be changed. Of course this idealistic point of view of mine can become skewed when childhood has given people nothing but insecurity and lack of safety. Believing that people have good in them does not mean it will always surface; in that case every awful thing that has happened to an individual must be dealt with. Having an opportunity to show another how people that love you and care about your existence. Their can be someone in your life that will be there and not judge for your past. Someone that you can count on and ultimately trust. That is what I want to do with my degree, pay it forward.

When I needed someone to believe in me; when the only thoughts racing through my head was everyone would be better if I was never born. The feeling someone believe in you, who cares even though you have never met them before.This overwhelming sense of trust I experienced: I knew I was here for a reason, Hais made me see that. That compassion cannot be imitated; it is something someone is born with. It is something I have always had; this is something I always wanted to do. I needed to heal from my past and choose it myself, taking the long road but still ending up at the same destination. That is a little part of me.