Chaotic!

Come on hold my hand, I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand, This role I’ve been given.
I sit and talk to god, And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don’t understand.
I just wanna feel real love, Feel the home that I live in.
’cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.
I don’t wanna die, But I ain’t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love, I’m preparing to leave her.
I scare myself to death, That’s why I keep on running.
Before I’ve arrived, I can see myself coming.
And I need to feel, real love, And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough. I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in. ’cause I got too much life, Running through my veins, going to waste.

I just wanna feel real love, In a life ever after
There’s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it’s a real big place.

I act too smart but I am dumb... I am impulsive, lazy, immature, passive, jumpy, hasty, cowardly... I am loving, caring, daring, silent, passionate, friendly, easy to please, ever-smiling.... A heady concoction of all the contraries! I am a total nutcase! And I am beyond correction!

And I have a name for one of the disorder I am suffering from, I am a "bibliokleptomaniac"