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Me.

First off , I will start with my name, Ethaniel. Ethan is my nickname. I'd like to say that I am a breathing human, if it does not feel that way. I am 14 years old, my birthday is July 15th. I have lived many places as a child, I lived 8 years of my life without the presence of my mother, just me and my dad. I do not seem to remember much of a childhood, much of me ever having one. I am depressed, and suicidal, I am working on it.. for 2 years or so now. I love music, music is basically me. Ive played guitars since around Christmas 2021, early 2022. I love to draw, I am not very good at either but I love both of those things. I wish to buy a motorcycle, they’re very cool. I feel free while on one. Im down to earth, submissive as fuck, and I am a nice dude if you take the time to get to know me. I am very thoughtful , most of the time. I take things to heart so I am sorry if I seem off if you do something you do not see as a big deal, I am trying to work on it. I am still working on myself. I have had a few relationships inside my life, I’ve been manipulated, lied to, cheated on, played, and used, list goes on but I will stop here. I’ve got trust issues and its hard for me to open up. I constantly apologize because in the past everything has been my fault, still kind of is. I deal with a mentally abusive mother, and issues of my own daily. As soon as I am 18, if I ever make it, I wish to leave this house. I honestly do not care if I become homeless or have nowhere to go. It would be better than dealing with my “mother” every day. I love hard, and I fall easily. But if I do fall for you, it is genuine. It takes a lot to break my heart to a point I do not come back. I will admit, I get blinded over love, and I can get hurt so many times, and still stay. Thats on me, I am trying and I am learning to love myself more and know when I should leave for me. Im working on it. Im working on a lot of stuff. Honestly do not know why I’m making this but as time goes on, I will edit it and add to it. I’ll add timestamps too I guess. also, I use day month year in my dates. like below, 20th day, 4th month, 2023.
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Ethaniel, 1:43 AM Sunday 20.04.2023