vin tokyo

Once, a while ago now, I found myself mid-30's and suddenly single. And gay, of course. Having been happily, dramatically, passionately, (smugly) coupled for so long it had become 'We' or 'Us', never 'Me' or 'I'. Suddenly it was just 'Me'. No longer one half of 'We' and certainly not the same Vin I had been before completely committing to being an A-Gay Couple and Growing Up. Who was I now? And who was I going to be? What was gay, single life going to be like in my 30's (not something I'd really cared to consider before) Things I 'knew to be true' before, were no longer so, turned into lies before my eyes, and the confidence and identity I had grown just evaporated when nothing could be trusted anymore (yeah, it was a crappy break-up) And so Then, I set out 'Finding Me Again', in search of the New Vin. Now? Closer (and closer) to 40. Still Single. Any wiser? Am I The New Vin, the best version I could have and aspired to become? Well, I'm certainly a Different Vin. But that's more the same Vin really. New Vin is Old Vin. Only Older;) I never really thought the answer, the achievement of New Vin was the goal of my quest. Some questions are more important than answers. In the face of the unachievable goal, it is the striving to move on, to become 'more' (better, newer) that is what is expected of us by life. So for those of you who are wondering (by which i mean myself) if I Found Me yet, if I have become the ellusive New Vin, the answer I guess is yes AND no. And so it is that now I find myself on a quest to find not New Vin, but the more achievable (I hope), Happy Vin. Yep, Closing in on 40. Still Single. And Still Finding Me...