Sugarcoated-Fairytale

Hey guys :)

So, I know most of my followers do not really care who I am, or what I am about. Thats totally fine and I understand that. I really try to minimize the rants I give and the personal information I share on my dashboard... I dont want to annoy people.

I figure if you have actually read this far, you probably are REALLY bored or something, but... I kinda thought I should share something about me?

ALRIGHT HERE GOES.

My name is Kate, I am 17 years old and I am in my second year of college. I get it free because I'm young and high school age. (The school system pays for it, its pretty nice. I do not go to any high school classes or anything anymore).

I am a huge nerdfighter, I like Supernatural (although I'm only on season 2 as I watch it with my dad), and Psych. I play the piano, cello, and guitar, and I play the piano [and sometimes sing] every week in my church's worship band. I am a Christian but I really have some major issues.

Okay, so there's the normal stuff???

I have an addiction of self destruction. I am currently in "recovery" but I don't really feel like it. I honestly feel like my brain is still the same, but I have matured a bit and handle things differently. I started self harming when I was 14 years old, and I hated myself so much. I attempted suicide once last year, but it wasn't an incredibly serious attempt (I ODed with 13 prescription depression pills, it was a serious attempt but my brain wasn't incredibly serious about it. I don't think I even really WANTED to die, but I just did what i thought I HAD to... it's hard to explain.)

I began dating my wonderful boyfriend and bestfriend (whateveryoumightlike.tumblr.com) January 13, 2012. That is also when I really seriously tried to stop cutting. I had been "trying" previously, but the amount of pain that he felt whenever I did it was not worth any gratification I got from self harming. (I obviously was not successful the first attempt at quitting, as that is not how addiction works, but I tried really hard)

Quite honestly, I never really stopped self destructing. As soon as I stopped cutting, I began starving and binging and purging.... so that happened. (MY TEETH SUCK. BUT I STOPPED PURGING SO HAH FUCK YOU MENTAL ILLNESS).

So yeah, thats... kinda my story?