Maria Hoffman

My name is Maria Hoffman, widow of the late William John Hoffman who gifted me 4 wonderful children, I am a 51 year old dudette, working as a manager for Penntext...while going thru a process of grieving, I believe I will find a new normal, I believe I will dream a new dream...

I grew up in a catholic school where I was constantly challenging the nuns, questioning them about all this life purpose and reason for existence, their worst nightmare was not exactly my questions but my resistance to their answers and my problem was not their answers but their resistance to my natural reasons to ask the questions...as I grew up(eventually out of any religion at all), I started pondering on the need for contrast, after all, how can we understand the meaning of sunset if there is not sunrise?...we are creators, we, the human kind, are extensions of our idea of God or whatever name resonates better for you, it matters not, our physical bodies, our minds are just the tools needed in this existence on our way to evolve out of it and the magic glue that keep us together is love in the sense impossible to explain with words, words actually get on the way not allowing us to really understand the real meaning behind them.
I don't have the answers, I can only let myself to be guided by what lies within and see the clear signposts that would lead me to the idea of happiness, to live without fear, without excuses, abandoning or better to say, letting go any kind of attachments to material stuff and people in the sense of trying to find happiness and/or fulfillment that can only be truly found in ourselves first, then and only then we are able to share it with others.
Who am I to show you if wonders can be true?...you can see that in the mirror, you can see that in your deep understanding that feeding hungry people brings you far more joy and peace than to buy a car, nature! It is constantly speaking a language that sometimes we choose not to understand.
I don't have the answers...I thought that what my husband and I co-created was a fair purpose but life has its own agenda and not too long ago, I understood that life has given me the opportunity to re-create myself on the solid base of who I am and for that I am grateful...