Thitu Kariba

peace, love, goals, wholeness, conciousness, happiness, healinFrom the age of 6yrs, men approached me and abused me. I believed my beauty was a curse. By high school I was a mess. All I wished was that God would have created me a boy. Consequently, I dressed and even shaved my beautiful, long hair to divert the boys’ attention.

At 17yrs I was drugged and raped. (Sex was a normal part of my life) I would use it to gain power and most of all, to get vengeance on men. I hated men so much, that I tried a same sex relationship to spite them.
I moved from bad relationship to worse. In all along I never knew about God outside church, which I hardly attended. I was a sinner and though I knew there was a God, I believed I was not one of his people.

I had a baby boy,having a child did not seem to make a difference. My lifestyle led to severe depression and schizophrenia that required hospitalisation, loads of drugs and electric current treatment.

Driven by lust, bitterness, the voices in my head and anger, I got worse and ended up in a relationship with an ahtiest doctor that began one night when he slept with me in my hospital be. This time I not only got pregnant but had an abortion.

The pain and grief of what I had done broke this camel’s back! Suicide was my only way out, and at that point I found God who told me that if I gave him my life that was worth nothing, He would turn it around and give me everything. i figured, if he failed to come through for me I would return to my original plan of taking my life. He never did and has not failed me yet as now I am alive and well.

God has a plan for me. A good plan and a hopeful future.I am His Healing Ambassador,an instrument of love, that will bring about restoration of people even after Abuse,Depression, Rape, Abortion and more.. We are not our situations, experiences, our thoughts, or our mistakes, we are so much more, so much greater, we just need to break through and go beyond the limitations.

I am reaching and repairing the broken and wounded. Helping them help and free themselves. Establish a new family in Love, where people are not condemned for their past, or judge, to create a new space to live and be all that we are.
Beauty for ashes is about looking back at our messy past and deciding to start a new, understanding that when we fall down, we do not have to break.. We can bounce.

Shalom

Thitu Kariba
The healing Am