Janna-Ray

My mom named me after her best friend and my father. She say’s that I was never a mistake, my father was. She had barely finished high school when she met him. He was separated from his girlfriend and living in the hotel where she worked as a waitress and i was the result.

My mom’s pretty angry about the fact that he’s usually working under the table to avoid paying his child support.

I think a lot about that back owed child support. That it never goes away. It hurts me that I will never get to know him and that i’m this huge burden on him and his whole family hates me.

I don’t want him paying for me. I didn’t ask to be here and I hate it that i’m just a way to punish him for walking away. I know we need the money but he doesn’t want to pay it and I don’t want to ever have to take money from him ever. It's not like she gets the money. i wish she would stop fighting for it. for it not to be hanging over him any more. I don’t want to be the bat he’s beaten with, why doesn’t anyone get that.