Ashley

Hi, my name's Ashley, and I've been a victim of bullying. To start off, I am a very un-confident person with hardly any self-esteem.

I was bullied when I was in year 5-8, maybe even earlier, and I'm in year 9 going on to year 10 next year. I would get teased about my weight and called anorexic when I'm not even anorexic nor did I ever suffer from anorexia, I'm just naturally skinny. I would also get teased about liking someone when I was in 6th grade, and even by the guy himself. He found out that I liked him when my friend at the time said "Would you believe that Ashley likes you?" and he laughed and said "I do, but I don't want to." Thanks to him, I don't even tell people if I like them because I'm so afraid of rejection and I mostly go for the guys who are way out of my league. I've never had a boyfriend, which yes, it means I've never kissed a guy, never had sex or done any physical things with a guy, which in my society I would be called a fridget, which I pretty much am. Not a lot of people know that I'm fridget and only my closest friends would know. Nowadays, you get judged on almost everything you do and don't do. I'm only 15. I've never done drugs or drank alcohol and don't really plan to while I'm still underage. I'm not a very social person, although at school I'm loud with my friends but I'm not very social when it comes to when I spend weekends alone at home on the internet.

In year 6, someone told me how I was really pale and I had never realised so they made me feel really left out to other people, who were tan. I cannot tan, I just burn. I'm a naturally pale person. I soon got over being pale until year 8. I got called a vampire and people would ask me if I ever went out in the sun. At the moment, I felt horrible about myself and my body that I actually refused to go to school for days. I cried myself to sleep, asking myself over and over why do they make me feel so little? Does it make them feel like a bigger person to see other people hurting and feeling shit about themselves? It got to the state where I had to move back to my old school where my other friends were. I may act like a confident person, but truthfully, no-one knows what goes through or went through my head but me.

I don't get bullied anymore, and if I do, I just shake it off. Stay strong.