Lance !

Hiya guys. So I kinda wanna touch base on some things. The first thing is, I haven't been motivated at all. Not just with my art, but with life in general. Drawing usually improves my mood but I haven't doodled in over a month, so my mood has been staying at a very low place on the scale. I know some of you just follow me for my art, that's okay, but I just wanna apologize for not providing any art in the last month. I just haven't been interested in anything or motivated to draw..at. All.

The second thing is, I don't feel okay on here (Instagram) I've had trouble making friends and trusting people on here for a long time. I only have about 5 people who actually consider me an important friend. I'm not saying that's bad, I'm just saying I would prefer to interact with all of my followers and friends, and since I moved to a new account, I only let my mutuals follow me with an exception of people from tumblr, so I expected to have more of an interaction with the majority of my followers. I just feel hated. I don't feel safe, and I don't feel liked. I feel..uncertain about some people on here and I'm probably going to unfollow/softblock them soon, and if I do, please don't get angry. I have my reasons for blocking you.

The third thing is, I've been majorly depressed. I mean, major. I do suffer from severe depression and anxiety, I also have OCD. it's very hard for me to stay positive with the things that are going on/have gone on in my life. I tend to vent about those things to you guys, but in the end, really nobody cares, so, I figured I would leave for awhile. It's best for me to go because A. Nobody really even likes me here B. I'm very annoying and I do get messages from people saying I am C. I can't provide you guys with the content you want and finally D. I'm currently not doing well in my personal life

I would appreciate it if you didn't unfollow me because yes, I will be back, I'm just taking a break, but I guess if you're one of those people who just doesn't care, go ahead.

I'm sorry to anyone who I have caused trouble for. And I'm especially sorry to someone on here who knows how hard I am struggling with trying to reach out to them and tell them that, I'm sorry.

Thank you for reading this, I'll come back when I feel okay again. Happy Holidays to all of you!