zahida samsudin

One day I had to sit down with myself and decide that I love my self no matter what I looked like and what other people thought about my self. Im not hot or gorgeous. I don't have an amazing figure or a flat stomach. Im far from being considered a modal, but Im me. I eat food, I have curves, I have more fat than I should, I have scars, I have a history. Some people love me, some like me, some hate me. I have done good. I have done bad. I love my life. Im random and sometime crazy. I don't pretend to be someone Im not. I won't change.

All my life I have been thinking of what I am planning to do with my life and what I would like to learn more about when I grown up. Well, today I know what I want to do and what career I want to take as I grown up. Yes of course Im growing up and been working before, but I realize at one stage, I need more knowledge and need to step out from my comfort zone. Due to current situation, I realize that I can't just sit down and lay back. I quit from my job, and with no doubt anymore, I pursue my study. Thanks Allah, my family is the most wonderful thing happened to me. Without them, I would have never made any of my dream come true.

I wish to sometimes come out of my shell. Whenever I think about my assignment, then I cry myself to sleep. :-P

It hurts knowing I try doing my best and still wasn't good enough. I hope nothing more from expertise around me, especially at this stage, but I do hope, lend me a hand.