zhabeth eli sembrano

I am Unique

I amgrateful today.I feel this day with soft eyes.I smile at everyone I see. There are people who can barely walk. There are people who cannot see at all. For me
on this day the landscape goes on forever.People in their cars everyone seems to know where they are going I lost track but I am still writing lists.I take my sketchbook everywhere I go one never knows I might catch a touch of blue or green against the soil.I see sprinkles of laughter from creatures I invent inside my head. High tea served at midnight thank you very much. How generous of the flowers to include me.There are signs pointing out directions this way and that. This way will bring you home or that way will take you further away if you need to run.Well meaning people often displaced. I am yet grateful. My appointments bring me hope. I am not just another flower in the garden.I hold out my hands see that I am different from any other. There are people who have decided I am worth it. So I think maybe despite my own declarations and objections that creep in from time to time I am grateful for this soul that is my own.I think of all the days that I stood still lonely all those days that I invited sad. all those days of my not noticing my living wishing I was not here at all and thinking how long?I amgrateful now. I have grown past only feeling regret.While I know those feelings will return from time to time I know happy a little better and it is saving me.I am less harsh on myself now not demanding answers or positive outcomes only. I am in touch more in the moment and it is safe. Creating within and without finding beauty in the simple accepting each day as it comes. Not holding anyone to their word we all need room for excuses. I allow for mine. I guess I am focusing more on possibility. It feels like a day I can finally breathe in. I amunique.