When I was a kid, I was bored with life and felt a deep void. I touched the fear of death when I was 8, and started to have suicidal thoughts from 9 years old.

I hated how mundane and violent life was.I turned to reading, writing, surfing the Internet for more information, more inspiration, and a fantasy world that seemed more worth living. I took pleasure in being one of the best students, as well as making myself more beautiful through manifestation (before I heard this concept from outside I already knew) and obsession with things like skincare.

At 16 years old, I found spiritual books such as Power of Now and Law of Attraction in my high school library, and I experienced the first crush of my life. I started to experience intense joy, love, and gratitude.

At 18 years old, I thought I've uncovered the deeper truth of life. I no longer feared death, since I saw the bigger reality.

I went abroad at 20, and my life was in such accelerated expansion.

The breath-taking beauty of the Ice Lagoon in Iceland. The incredibly generous and loving Couchsurfing hosts. Deep friendships based on soul resonance. Validation, envy, admiration. Fabulous soul-mate relationship. Blissful physical, emotional, energetic, and spiritual orgasms. All the cool spiritual things you can think of. All those amazing things, if told to my younger self, she would be mesmerized and say,"So you must have arrived! You must have found the reason to live your life!"

Yes and no, kid.

I'm now living in a town popular among retired people. In my non-productive time, I take a walk along the sea, pet street cats, socialize a little bit...You might not want to skip all the not always pleasant crazy journey and arrive here, kid.

The only difference is, I'm more ok with how life is than you would have been if you were directly sent here without all the crazy journey.

The true completion of any peak experience happens when it is fully lived in the most ordinary moments.

As sung in the song, there is no high, there is no low, there is nowhere else to go.

If I would meet my 8-year-old self, I won't give her the spoiler. I would just smile, hug her, and say nothing but "I love you".

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